My Journal

" THE STORY OF MY LIFE "

          Life is constantly flowing, having too much change in direction and is always in an unforeseen motion, much like a water in a river. Mapping out my life from the beginning where I started and up to where I am now will show a lot of why I consider life is like a river that flows. It`s a chart of my inner geography, a log of the paths I have taken.

           The real journey of my life, as I know it, began the moment I opened my eyes and mind to the world around me. I can`t really tell you about my life from the time I was born, so I`ll start from when I first understood things. That`s when my crazy, unpredictable life began. I can clearly remember my elementary days; I was an honor student back then, I used to join Science contest (Sci-art competition) and proudly represents our school up to division level. I was full of enthusiasm when it comes to studying. Both of my parents are teachers, but they work at different schools, from grade 1 to grade 4, I attended my mother`s school and then got transferred to my father`s school in grade 5 up to I graduated elementary. I made many friends at the second school I attended, and because of those friends I became more eager to learn and became more active in terms of both my academic and extracurricular performance. I was full of dreams back then.

        When I entered high school, everything suddenly changed. That`s when I started having different kinds of friends. The lessons became a little bit more challenging for me, and I reached a point where I needed help from my parents. One time, I asked them to help me with the lesson I find hard to understand, but their response was unexpected, Aren`t you paying attention in class?, and that hit me hard enough, I suddenly lost motivation to study. I started hanging out with my easy-going classmates, and sometimes I even join them in going out. I neglected my studies until I found inspiration again when I met the first and only woman who would change my life once more. I became motivated again to go every day to school. We werent that close at the beginning of our relationship but she made me more motivated and lively again.

        Due to the distance from my parents, college was an additional test for me. I enrolled in Capt. Lawrence`s two-year Automotive Mechanic program. That`s where I experienced the difference of being away from my parents, I became free. I became more independent and determined because I took a course that was my dream and passion. My girlfriend and I become closer, even though we go to different schools. Our frequent get-togethers have strengthened our bond. Together, we have planned and constructed our dreams. I was very motivated to graduate due to our dreams together. And I finally graduated. Months passed, and I looked for a job in Manila to try life there. While my parents weren`t as supportive, I was determined to try it for my own growth in experience. My girlfriend supported me for my decision. As time passed, I realized that it was hard to make a living there, especially since my job was far from my graduated course. I also missed my family, my girlfriend and the life I have. I then decided to go home and try again in Mindoro.

        As the years went by, I had numerous chances to put what I have learned into practice by opening my own store. But since I put my family`s needs first, all of that was in vain. I decided to go back to school because I realized that a permanent job is better than waiting for another opportunity to start a business, which seems unlikely to happen. With the help and encouragement of my brother and my girlfriend, and my desire to get a better job, I finally gathered the courage to go back to college. I am now more motivated than I am before, and my decision-making process is more mature. Currently, I am still on the process of fulfilling my dreams. I have so much plans and dreams in mind for myself and my future family, so I`m doing my best to overcome the challenges I am facing now.

        Having faced a lot of struggles, I learned that as long as you make effort to fulfill your dreams, there is nothing wrong with having them. All of the struggles and sacrifices are just part of the process in search of a brighter future. I believe that it is not too late for me to undergo this process because it`ll be worth it for me and my future family.